Enjoy the SilenceIt is officially a year today that I had set off from Malaysia destined for England. Naturally, if you know me, I left without saying any goodbyes. I did inform my closest friends at the last minute and to my convenience there was no time for farewell hugs and kisses or get-togethers of any kind. Boy did I find out later about the many different reactions to my sudden departure. Some of my homies were angry, some were surprised, some could hardly care and others flooded me with When are you coming back?s and well-wishes.
I am not a person who is good with goodbyes. In fact, I tend to avoid them altogether. Even when I left after Easter and summer holidays, there has never been an outing that already had the agenda of it being -the last time we go out with Alyaa until her next break-, which I find myself being totally grateful for. Handling those sorts of scenarios is something I fail terribly at. In terms of my family, goodbyes are inescapable. Now, that I have learnt how to deal with. The thing is I never feel as though I left my family at all. You would be surprised at how frequently I communicate with my parents. Nothing has changed in that sense.But with my friends, a lot of things have changed. I, for one, cannot physically be present at every party or at every sleepover or at every brunch at Devi s Corner or La Bodega or at every dinner at Chili s. And I embrace those changes because even though I am not exactly present, I love watching them evolve on their own terms. Everyone close to me I noticed have taken very separate tertiary education paths and it is amazing how we all can still be close to one another. I try my best to keep in touch anyway. They know that I am always there in spirit. My legendary voice has made sure they will not forget. *laughs. [Note: my vocals are extraordinarily loud].
To all my Amanian
friends ( you know who you are) and Soraya, I miss you girls
deeply. Really la! *Kisses on everyone s cheeks!
( a l y a a ) @ Monday, December 26, 2005 / 11:35 am /
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