I had only thought the other day about how excited I would be come December when this online journal of mine would be three years old. How I would celebrate the dash in coolshaker- and my spot in blogspot and perhaps reflect on this mini-achievement in a moment of beautiful solitude.

 

I thought of how coolshaker- would always be mine, even if there would come a time when I would abandon this habit of self-expression and photo posting. I thought of how ten years down the road, I could look back at this and see how much I've grown, what I've been through and who was around. I thought of how this blog gave friends faraway insight on what was going on with me and how it helped that whenever we do meet, no one misses a beat because I have (or had, by that time) coolshaker-. I know the archives are still here but somehow, it just doesn't seem the same.

When I changed my blogspot address for awhile today, (I had my reasons, really, I did), I thought I could change it back to what it was. I mean, really, what are the odds of some one else quickly grabbing a coolshaker with a dash right. Little did I know that I wouldn't be able to change it to what it is known to be. Try as I might, I can't have it back.

It is not going to come back.

It belongs to nobody now.