DamageHow appropriately dramatic the past week has been. What with all the pretending, hiding, yelling, calling, and apparently faking on my part. You would think that keeping a secret for this long (a period I will never reveal, but long enough I assure you) would have such grave repercussions. And yes if you think that way, you thought right. I wanted to think that this time around, all the time spent could have been worth it. But I see now that both of us are still anxious and uncomfortable with the whole predicament.
I realize that you are in a much more vulnerable physical and emotional state than I am, but to use that to make me feel less important is a new low. I am at fault for constantly biting your ear off and putting more pressure on you than necessary but to exit the situation? I don't know, could be a glimpse of cowardice in your character. Funny, how I was led to believe that it would've been different the second time around. I can't believe out of everyone, I've been the only one to find you and yet I get the most neglected treatment. I see that I serve as a negative cognitive association of what happened but that honestly can't be helped.
Leave. Run. Go away. If that makes you feel better.
Am I venting? Indeed. So don't ask me for details.
( a l y a a ) @ Thursday, March 29, 2007 / 2:18 am /